YouTube Series 2
So it has been about 2 weeks since I have uploaded my first YouTube video! Since then I have posted 3 more videos - both of which are part of my new series for "Living Regular Life Vlogs". So much of my days consistent of working my 9-5, taking care/hanging out with my dog, and routine cleaning 😂. Now that I have created these types of videos that showcase my everyday life. I want to branch out and make more "subject" oriented videos. Maybe a video about what I wear working from home or what I eat/make for lunch etc.
Progress so far
Will admit in the beginning I was curious on how to make money doing YouTube, and I still am interested in building a following with subscribers and doing advertisements on videos.
But now a larger part of me is just more curious to learn how to do this. And do it right 😂.
Obviously, there isn't one editing style that fits everyone or a perfect formula that everyone can use to go viral. Finding the style that fits my personality and ability to edit (for now) is definitely a learning process. One that I am finding I enjoy immensely. Editing is amazing! There are SO many different editing styles you can do.
Video transitions, effects, text styles, cuts, music etc. Every video so far, I have tried to add/improve something. Part of me just wants to know everything already 😂 To have found my style so editing doesn't take as long but I know this is the journey. There really isn't anyway to rush it since whatever I need to know to create a good video I will learn as I keep going.
Improvement
As I continue filming and editing, it becomes clear what I need to improve on in order to create better videos. One thing I struggle with a lot is talking to the camera. I feel very awkward and formal in front of the lens and I know with time and consistent practice I will become better. I don't want to get so caught up on how I sound or how much I am saying that it prevents me from uploading a video. Video might not be perfect but they will improve as I move forward.
Part of me feels annoyed that the video isn't the type/quality I want but again trying not to get too hung up on it. Once I find my style and build more confidence, I know I will reach a point where I will be satisfied with the video I create.
Insecurity
Have to admit in a lot of videos of me living at home and working remotely, the way I dress and lack of makeup I wear sometimes makes me feel a little self conscious. Not in the way that it makes me super insecure more like I know I can present myself to just "people" better 😂. Since covid I haven't had to go back to the office and its easy to roll out of bed and just get started with the day. Yet watching these videos and seeing how I show myself to the world makes me want to dress better. It almost like "I have a reason" now to dress up for the day when before nobody was looking at me.
I know I shouldn't think of it as "having a reason now".
I should dress how I want for myself regardless of what I do. And right now with YouTube I want to be better. Not a massive wardrobe change 😂 but clothing that isn't always sweatpants all the time would be a slight level up I think.
Anxiety
Every now and then I get nervous about showing my face on YouTube. I think OMG how would people react to my face. Hate comments, family, friends, lauging and making fun of what I am doing etc.
It can happen, but I will continue to upload and do YouTube anyway.
Already I am learning/changing how I want to be and what my interests are and people being supportive especially those who do care for me wouldn't react in a way that is negative. Its hard to keep reminding myself that when my overthinking kicks into gear. Only been now 4 videos so far which really is nothing in comparison to larger YouTubers so got so much time left to invest in this. I think overthinking for me is kinda inevitable at this point in life 😂 yet not letting it stop from moving forward is the key to not letting it bring me down.
Nikon Z30
I did finally invest in a new vlogging camera which is extremally exciting. I technically didn't really speed money on it but was able to get from my job which made me feel better about it. I still have much to learn on how to actually use this camera. So that will also be a fun learning process!
I hope everyone is learning and achieving their dreams as well!
